First things first this blog is a venting place to you to help me get things off my chest so read into it what you want but these are my opinions and not fact this has been bottled in for years and so please just read it make comments what ever but here we go!!!

       Ok this is what happens If I call someone they see my name on their phone and say god what does he want.  They think that I want something or need them to do something.  i hear that in a lot of peoples voices and when they say no I hang up and make an excuse to my wife why people can't help us yes i'm sick all the time and can't lift a lot of heavy stuff.  So people ask why my comfort place is in my bed with it dark as can be, comfortable and nothing can hurt me, no one can bring me down yes i'm depressed with a lot of news I got Last week makes me know that for a fact I'll never get one, or feel the way they will when it happens.  I know that god has a plan for me but I would like a direction on which way to go.  People are doing things that I can't take my wife too.  My wife hasn't left the house in a long time.   So if I stop social media, cell phone, and stay off the grid for a week anyone would notice I dough't it.